"I'm sure the grave of the person who invented the waffle is covered with beautiful flowers..." pt.1
lately i've been trying to live like a cat. cats don't struggle to be happy as they don't bother with the insignificance of anything, but the weight of now.
I hope each day brings something eventful, but feel stressed when the day seems to pass me by. What if todays event is sitting in my backyard and
smoking weed. being content to be home with oneself is how we can achieve eternal happiness. If i stop thinking of my self or the self
that belongs to me, and appreciate
the things around me then maybe i would have more adoration for the creatures and matter i love and encounter.
-eat waffle
"would you rather be an alien or robot?" pt.200
is what i would say if the air sat still around us. "i would rather be an angry bastard" you say. im sorry that life
has been lame, i would probably feel the same if i were you, i love you.. zombie
I love to dream and share the stories with those who were in them. the mid-day sun casts a perfect gleam of light
across my room. one strong enough to soundly rest two cats and an alien. some would advise against regularly taking naps
but i'm graduated and unemployed, and maybe summer could last forever. Dreams have cured my boredom they're where unpredictable adventures
and charming characters await. my loneliness hasn't been so lonely because "if we're in each others dreams we can be together all the time" -Winnie the Pooh.
As i get older i feel my imagination wander away yet appear briefly to only get itself lost again. If only i could go back to
the playground where wonder was easy to believe and the late nights felt like a special time to do all the things we could imagine.
i need to stop reminiscing before it eats me. as dark clouds gently blow leaves off deciduous trees i get the feeling that summer is coming to an end.
maybe it's a sign for me to grow up and get a job or maybe it's a sign to forage for snacks, movies, and games.
Im not completely actually serious about that but i have felt real growth this past week and i know i would do great in
anything i tried. dreams can only last forever;
it may be time to wake up and live the life so unpredictable and charming that dreams could never replicate.
-remember to laugh out loud
Sep/16/20is(pt.1)-Sep/30/20is
fr*ck
i have officially lost my marbles. can you help me find them?
-dontbelieveeverythingyoureadontheinternet
Sep/06/20is
holy crap it's september! 2nd?
journeying to the central library on my fixed gear bike with a bag full of cd's.
I was on a quest to rip them all on onto my ipod using the public computers.. you might assume that im
somewhat of a hipster but i don't enjoy brown or green drinks that they're known to consume. i'll drink
a beer or maybe even a topo chicho but
im nerdy, so don't forget that. i modded this ipod to store more music than it
initially could & live longer than any ipod ever should. i have the power to
do that because i am a prisoner of nostalgia.
When I was younger i would stay at Angel's all the time. We would play minecraft on
his xbox 360, eat boiled eggs, watch cartoons on newgrounds, and sh*t like that. one day his older brother
showed us a couple youtube videos his friends had email'd. one of them being the party rock music video.
I was infatuated by the choreography. mom picked me up from Angel's and drove me back home.
she surprised me with a happy meal that she picked up on her way out of work. I guess i played too hard and accidentally dropped the smurf
from the happy box or whatever out the window onto the road. I'd hope that he found his way back home, but
i think his ass got run over enough times to become a blue stain on the hot Arizona asphalt. party rockers
were in the house that night. I put on my red skinny jeans and
neff snapback and started shuffling like a beast, having a good time really. that is, until my mom posted a picture of me
in my attire on her facebook. a husky mexican kid wearing red skinny jeans i felt a little embarrassed. enough so that i decided to give up on party rocking..
i would continue to shuffle in secrecy.
Today has been eventful
to say the least, but it's okay, it is actually great. the fact is that you can't accept wonderful surprises
without also welcoming terrible ness. I received amazing news, that is i am being reunited with mom after 10 years of living in separate countries.
I usually avoid bringing this up,
i'm glad i'm bringing it up now. I won't have to ever bring it up again once she's back. mom was born in Mexico, she changed servers, and generated me in the big U S of A. but after some time she had to leave. i tried
living out of the country, but i couldn't acclimate to the new environment, the ecosystem was messed, and a whole bunch of other crap. but i regret
not toughing it out, I feel like it's been pretty shit over on this side after like 2016 at most maybe. I received lousy news today, real spit-in-your-face type, and it wasn't even intentional
like that shit just happened, the universe playing a sick prank, or maybe just balancing itself. I just have to accept it,
you all will be y'all and I love being myself, except when i don't want to be myself anymore. anyway when i found my ipod
buried beneath objects of the past, there was only one song on there. It was lmfao party rock anthem, who's down to 🪅🤘
-leaf
Sep/02/20is
If i give into the angst i might explode
Tonight's silence is loud, even more so than usual as I got my ass kicked
in Super Smash Bros Melee. There are so many things I want to get done:
build the new resume, fix the site, write the song, PET THE CAT... just
to name a few. But my daily cycle of living is messed, time feels sped up,
like it somehow accelerated as soon as I changed the
difficulty on guitar hero 2. Writing down my thoughts is weird. I can never finish
out my writings, they generally leave off open ended. Too many thoughts flood me all
at once and I'll panic and think of how our conversation would go if you read this crap.
Then i'll snap out of my trance and won't remember what I was even thinking in the first place.
Like when I cried on the way to the toy store, im not sure what i was thinking, I was hyped as hell in the first place.
It was probably the emo music that did it. I spend far too much time pondering my existence.
My cat has climbed up onto my chest as I write this, like a pirate getting ready to sail the high seas.
at least I got to check one thing off my list.
I am scared of what tomorrow brings, but everyday im learning to grow, I am
getting smarter, and faster and stronger.. so you better watch out!! just sayin'
-Detective Doc. Monkenstein
Aug/17/20is
Aug/14/20is
i am so dumb
stop drop roll crash and burn? there are many nice things i can
say about you, but i cant find any to say about myself. i think
you all are extremely beautiful, not in a weird way cuz im not weird
but in a i see the best in you and am hopeful of your excellence. i kinda
just want to stay in touch an say wussup now and then but i guess it's not cool to
do that. i'll wait until i get to see you in person so i can stumble over my
words and make a fool out of myself. i built
this site ( ◡̀_◡́)ᕤ to well express the feelings i avoid, to prove
i am a human, and to keep track of the flaws i didn't know i had. nah
JK that last one was a joke, i'm incredible!
-somebody that you used to know